just wanted to let everyone know that, yes, I am in fact still alive. A weird thought, but you know, things can get crazy sometimes.

some new things that you might be of interest in: I am actually living in switzerland right now for hte year as an exchange student.. which is lots and lots of fun, very challenging though due to the fact that I am learing french. But what's cool is that I am in the specialized section for art visuals, so I have lots and lots of art classes.. which is weird because i love writing, but not drawing or whatever. But I guess i was never really given the chance to allow myself ot experiement.. so this is going ot be an interesting time for me. I have been changing tons, and I can see myself so much more clearly now. Sounds corny, but i can see so many more of my actual faults that I was denying before, and I am even starting to see some of the good things about me. I also have alot more belief in myself and what I am able to do... which is guess is a good thing.

anyways, just wanted to let you know.

JulieVrgn: you know what
JulieVrgn: shove it up your ass
Jujee894: im afraid thats just not gonna work this evening
JulieVrgn: how about tomorrow morning?
Jujee894: eh, i'll see if i can pencil that in
Jujee894: tomorrows a busy day..u know how it is
JulieVrgn: yeah, I understand
JulieVrgn: I'm busy all weekend, so my next oppurtunity would be late next week
Jujee894: wow, well what are u doing next tuesday at 4:37?
JulieVrgn: I think i'm free
JulieVrgn: let me check
JulieVrgn: yup I am
JulieVrgn: although, 4:38 is better for me
Jujee894: eh..well....
Jujee894: i guess that would be alright
Jujee894: but i do have somewhere i have to be at 4:41
JulieVrgn: ok, it shouldn't take to long
Jujee894: i might be able to push that back until 4:42 though
JulieVrgn: flexible
Jujee894: exactly
JulieVrgn: ok.. so.. next tuesday at 4:48 we stick it up your ass.. sound good?
Jujee894: i thought it was 4:38
Jujee894: this throws off my whole schedule now
JulieVrgn: oh right, sorry
JulieVrgn: 4:38 my bad
JulieVrgn: casue I have an appointment at 4:46
JulieVrgn: that is very important
Jujee894: alright good, i was gonna say, if u were going to have it at 4:48 i might want to reschedule for 4:53
JulieVrgn: thankfully though, it's at 4:38
JulieVrgn: although, 4:53 wouldn't be to bad either
Jujee894: ah well, i guess either way it should work
JulieVrgn: but we have to decide now, because soemone else is planning a rendez-vous with me
Jujee894: hm, and what time would that be?
JulieVrgn: well right now they are looking at a 4:52 until possibly 4:56
JulieVrgn: but that's a little lengthy.. so I might have to cut it short
Jujee894: well, since i wouldnt be free until 4:53, i guess we should just stick with 4:38
JulieVrgn: ohok, that sounds good
JulieVrgn: where will we meet?
JulieVrgn: three feet and two inches from teh rear entrance of the school parking lot.. on the second step?
Jujee894: actually, its usually too sunny there, i'd prefer 3 feet and 4 inches from the rear entrance on the second step
JulieVrgn: that usually picks up a breeze though..
JulieVrgn: how about the left entrance... 45 inches from the rectangular window to the right on the forth step?
Jujee894: 48 inches and u have a deal
Jujee894: i dont like being so close to the window
JulieVrgn: 47?
Jujee894: ugh, fine, but i must have u know that that's WAY outside my comfort zone
JulieVrgn: but it shall only take two three minutes at the most
JulieVrgn: I have things to see people to do, I can't take to long
Jujee894: i know, 3 minutes might be too much, since i have another place to be at 4:41
JulieVrgn: oo right
JulieVrgn: maybe we can cut it down to like.. 2 minutes.. 34 seconds
Jujee894: eh, 2 minutes 33 seconds, otherwise i will be SO late to my next appt.
JulieVrgn: true true, I can understand your situation completely
Jujee894: thank you, its rare that i meet with someone who is so flexible with their time

mhm. so the play is going.. swell and well.. it's a joy.. although my ankle is swollen and has tons of colors that just makes it look.. rather.. disgusting. Everyone is so tired and stressed out.. I've had way to many people cry on my shoulder over the past couple of weeks.

and then yesterday morning my dog died... sweet ol' cookie. it saddens me.. very much so..

and on the same day we began to disect our frogs. And of course, I named him tony.. and also of course.. the one day that my nose isn't stuffed up to an extreme... I got to smell the horribly disgusting frog. what a joy.

and i can't play volleyball. I wouldn't mind it to much.. except that I'm being graded on it. which really just sucks.

yesterday I was drowning in my own self pity when I realized that no one loved me.. and at that same moment of revalation.. I fell down the stairs. I think that was a sign or something. more like an omen.

and I continue to realize that I'm a complete idoit... and that people are WAY to nice to me. it's rather amusing, I must say.

but for today, i'm skipping school.. I was excited this morning to think of what I could do.. all of the things I could eat.. but as I realize now.. I have no appitite.. as I sit here drinking warm old gatorade. I might go and cook something.. if I have enough time.. for I have to go and listen to someone tell me how fucked up I am in a few moments. ok.. so maybe in an hour.

and I could be doing so many things.. like homework. or watching tv.. or reading.. or cooking.. but NOOO.. I'm here typing and wallowing in my own self pity. Is that a word? wallowing? if it's not.. it should be. and if it really is not.. then it is now.. for I just made it. and what I say.. goes..

haha. I humor myself.

well after reading one that a person who I particu.. paticular.. particlal.. really admire. I was like. hey. ingenius! so I made my own. so everyone better take it. that's threat. although it's not. I just like saying that.




tu es pres? wowe.

To start off, the basic questions:

Name-
Age-
Location-
Astrological sign-
Talents/Skills-
Hobbies/Interests-
Total Number of ex-girlfriends-
Favorite Musicians-

True/False Section:

8 hours of sleep is completely necessary for daily living.
Showers are only necessary when hair is able to naturally repel water, or when the stench is enough to drive away mosquitoes.
Being random and goofy is just plain awesome.
Extended hugs are fun.
Meeting new people and making new names for them is boring.
Temperature wise, you are usually comfortably warm.
You are able to laugh at yourself.

Short Answer Section:

Do you smoke?
If yes, what (please list in bullet form if necessary)
Do you consume daily alcoholic beverages?
How about weekly?
Drugs? If yes- what and how often.
Do you find it difficult/impossible to function normally when you are unable to consume anything of the above?
Do you have any neuroses, diagnosed or otherwise?
Are you capable of speaking in grammatically-correct sentences?
Do you drive/have a car?
How comfortable are you with unexpected situations?
Massages are… (complete the sentence)
Do you wear really baggy jeans that are just about down to your ankles?
Do you happen to have hours of random facts stored in your brain?
How long does it take you to get bored?
Are you a picky eater?
Would you ever consider yourself to be a specific type (ie- goth, skater, prep, jock etc.) and if yes, then what?
How often do you find yourself playing with fire/knifes/other unnecessary dangerous objects?
How important is honesty to you?

Multiple Choice Section:

Making snow angels in Monument Square during a snowstorm, in full view of passers-by, is-
a. Fun, impulsive, and maybe even a little romantic, depending on the circumstance
b. Not necessarily something you'd do normally, but you might try it
c. Completely embarrassing and not something you'd ever consider doing

Buying flowers-
a. A dozen red roses on Valentine's Day
b. Sixteen yellow tulips on Groundhog Day
c. Three daffodils on Tuesday
d. Always tacky.
e. Other (please explain)

Short clumsy girls in a weird assortment of clothing are-
a. sexually simulating
b. just odd.
c. Cool, but not my type
d. Gross
e. Amusing to look at.
f. Other (please explain)

Invisible Theater is-
a. one of my favorite pastimes.
b. Something that sounds exciting but yet I don’t’ know what it is.
c. Heard of it and it is annoying and a waste of time.
d. Haven’t heard of it and don’t want to.

In a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest) you rate a …. In comparison to other males my age in my degree of horniness-
a. 1-3
b. 3-6
c. 6-9
d. 10
e. 10+

Ice is made for-
a. Slipping and sliding and just having a blast.
b. To sit inside and watch other people struggle as they walk up your icy driveway.
c. Absolutely nothing. It’s such a waste of matter.
d. Throwing at people.

Your physical appearance, you personally think-
a. is a replica for what’s inside.
b. A false shield that hides you from the real world.
c. Um. It’s what I look like. Nothing more, nothing less.

Essay Section:

If you were to make me a cd of a collection of your favorite songs, what would be on it and why?

Tell me your funniest joke.

What’s your favorite physical part of the opposite sex and why?

Tell me a random story that explains who you are, 250 words or less.

And now, write me deep insightful poem. Ready… GO!

The past is deep.



I don't know why, but I truely love that simple sentence.. and also,



I wonder how many times I've been down this road.




so simple. but so good.


does anyone else see what I see?